Chrissy took to Instagram on Tuesday, September 28, to post a tribute to Jack after losing him. His death anniversary coincidentally fell on National Sons Day.
At first, she shared photos of her three-year-old son Miles in line with the Sons Day. She also offered a tribute to her daughter Luna a few days before. After which, the cookbook author shared a photo of herself in a hospital bed crying with John comforting her. She was 20 weeks pregnant when the incident happened.
She captioned it, “and to the son we almost had a year ago you gave me the greatest pain I could ever imagine to show me I could survive anything, even if I didn’t want to. i didn’t get to take care of you but you came and went to get me to love myself and take care of myself because our bodies are precious and life is a miracle.”
She added, “they told me it would get easier but yeah, that hasn’t started yet. mom and dad love you forever.”
The Lip Sync Battle co-host also shared on her Instagram Story that day that she couldn’t sleep the night before because she was reminded by her phone of what happened last year. She’s been facing bullying allegations this year and she addressed the painful comments she has received on social media because of the controversy.
She wrote, “I didn’t sleep at all last night, as john can attest. I was up sick, sobbing, as my phone popped up the memory of being in the hospital exactly 1 year ago, losing our baby. So maybe I’m a little sensitive today but f–k off.” She continued, “Why people follow people they hate [is] beyond me.”
Chrissy also opened up about struggling with postpartum body. She wrote, “it’s really weird when you lose a baby and your body gets paused in time. usually you’d gain your ‘yumyums I’m praaaagnant!’ weight, then put on the weight of your little bebe. Then, ideally, you’d have your baby. And you would feed it from your boobs and your body would know to charge through and do what it does to get you back into fighting shape, whatever that may be, for however long it takes (F–K a snap-back).”
She added, “But man. When you lose a baby halfway through, your body just pauses. It has nothing to do. No one to feed. And you’re just…stuck.”